HNT-33

I have always been a fan of yoga pants and athletic wear but I didn't wear it much. I use clothes and my appearance as a way to change my mood. And I find that I feel better when I am dressed somewhat nicely. Since the ankle I can't wear heels for more than a couple of hours. So I am wearing my yoga pants and athletic stuff a lot more. Mostly because the only shoes I own that don't have a heel are my sneakers. The really strange thing is I get a lot more compliments in these yoga pants than I do in a nice pair of slacks...Do you think they are checking out my butt? Nah, probably not ;)

Happy HNT.

Shoot, Shoot, Shoot...

It is with regret that I write this letter. Due to personal constraints and the drastic reduction in enrollment we will have to suspend the Day Supports Program (After-School/Out-of-School) effective August 21st (last day of summer program).

There was more but I stopped reading after the 1st paragraph and began a stream of expletives that I will probably be ashamed of tomorrow. Oh and kicking things you know a full fledged tantrum. This is such bad news...Of course it comes after a successful school move and an agreeable neurologist who seems to have found the right medication. As if I had too many things going right in a song that is always off key I should have seen this coming, expected it even. But I didn't and right now I am sitting here with the biggest lump in my throat. It's not a big deal the after school is closing things like this happen. But I already know there aren't any others that serve 15 year old autistic boys in my area. And I already know from experience how Corey will respond to yet another new schedule and new group of people. He has a new school to adjust to and now this???? I feel exhausted. I feel angry. I want to scream NOT FAIR as loud as I can. And if I thought it would do any good I would scream. I might scream anyway whether it does any good or not.

A picture is worth a thousand words

Does this answer your question finished last??? Of course I am posting the pic because you asked and also because I am not in the mood to write. In a few days I will be on my way to New Orleans...Woot! So I figured why not post more of my embarassing collection.

Old...

Last week I finally purchased the media cabinet I have had my eye on from Pier 1. I wanted to use the right pier that before housed all of my CDs and music for my wine glasses and china. Anyway I have a cabinet at the bottom of the pier that I kept all my cassettes in...Yes you didn't misread my cassettes. I am a pretty big music fan always have been. I have albums my 1st was "Off the Wall" I used my birthday money to buy it thank you very much. And I bought albums from that time when I was 7 or 8 until I guess I was about 11. Then I started to buy cassettes. And for a long time I didn't want to let the cassettes go. I couldn't see buying CDs to replace cassettes I already had. And frankly I had been there done that with my albums. Just how many times was a poor girl like me supposed to buy all new music anyway??? So I kept the cassettes I have a stereo and I play my albums, cassettes, and now CDs (yeah I am slow with the MP3 player if you don't understand why please read above ;) Anyway back to the cabinet I honestly had forgotten how many cassettes I had hidden in there. But it's more than a handful as you can see. I couldn't figure out what to do with them. I mean you look cool when you pull out a Ray Charles album that your grandfather bought but typically your Journey "Escape" cassette doesn't get the same respect. So I went out and finally found a crate to hide them in on Sunday. And I must admit Cam and I had a great time playing my cassettes Sunday night. He kept asking the questions only a 10 year old would like..."wow you mean you have to stand here and wait for it to rewind? What if I only want to here the last song on this side?" Umm well I guess you are going to have rewind...wait...stop...forward...rewind again...and wait some more... :)

BTW the cassettes are stacked 4 deep and all the way across in case you were wondering.

HNT-32

32 HNTs...it's hard to imagine 32 HNTs and this is the 1st one of my eyes. Very boring I know but hey in this pic I am wearing make-up! This may not seem like a big deal but for me it is...so anyway....Happy HNT.

Drama Free Zone

So far so good Corey has been home and I am not wearing a cast...sounds like a win to me. He has been calmer and he seems relieved to be home. I haven't used the sleep aid but I also haven't seen the doctor yet to suggest the metalonin, I plan to at the next appointment. But frankly right now Corey is calm, he has been sleeping at night, he is not driving his brother crazy, and again I am not wearing a cast :)

What else? The Sopranos..loved the ending. The writers had trained me to be antsy and suspicious just like Tony and I think that was the point of the last scene. If I had watched the scene when the show began I wouldn't have thought much of it a family out to dinner but now everyone looked suspect...was the guy going to the bathroom an agent? what's up with the lady at the counter and on and on. Very cool ending.

I am usually the odd man out...gossip bores me, I would rather be stoned than talk about Paris Hilton or Idol, I don't have some relationship that I don't plan to end or work on but feel compelled to talk about endlessly, and I honestly don't like to tear other people down. Where am I going? Work oh my god WORK. I have been using the word petty quite a bit lately and I don't want to come off like a snob who is so enlightened and above it all. But man life is too short to waste time on petty bullshit...ok rant over.

What else else? Top Chef thank goodness season 3 has begun with the Sopranos and The Tudors finished I wouldn't have anything decent to watch. This new batch of chefs looks pretty good and Trey my, my, my he looks very good and he can cook what more do I need to be entertained this summer?

Two Things...

I shamelessly stole this from Kimba...

Two Names You Go By
1 Cat
2 Mom

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. blue shorts (hey it's 98 degrees today)
2. light blue tank

Two Things You Would Want (or have) in a Relationship:
1. unconditional love
2. openness and freedom to grow together

Two of Your Favorite Things to do:
1. listen to music
2. lately...sleep

Two Things You Want Very Badly At The Moment:
1. another day off
2. a passionate kiss

Two pets you had/have:
1. Lab/Sharpei mix-Joey I bought her for Cam's 10th birthday
2. Candy-the dog me and my brother had growing up

Two things you did last night:
1. watched "Daddy's Little Girl"
2. had a very serious conversation with Cam on why he is NOT old enough to stay up until 11 pm

Two things you ate today:
1. hooks and ladders sub from Firehouse Subs
2. 2 grams of fat animal crackers...I eat them most mornings they are the perfect match to my 4 cups of coffee ;)

Two people you Last Talked To:
1. MNG
2. Cam

Two Things You're doing tomorrow:
1. working
2. commuting (I swear I spend half of my life in the car)


Two Favorite Holidays: (like christmas or vacation?)
1. Thanksgiving & 4th of July
2. New Orleans (Mardi Gras 2000) & D.C. with MNG

Two Books you recently read
1. "A Return to Love" by Marianne Williamson
2. "Their Eyes Were Watching God" by Zora Neale Hurston (this month's book club choice)

Two things you wish you did better
1. make friends, open up to people
2. fail...you can't learn if you are afraid to fail and unfortunately I HATE to fail

Two shows you watch on tv
1. Entourage
2. Top Chef


naughty section

Two things you liked to do sexually that you haven't done or don't do often
1. sex while restrained...I just don't have the time for it that I would like
2. luxuriate...I am usually on a tight schedule I don't have the time to take my time...

Two places outside of bed you have had sex.
1. bathroom floor (me and hubby were quite pathetic in this area...it's no wonder all my friends hated me during this time we were notorious for having sex wherever whenever)
2. in the car (so cliche and embarrassing)

Two times you had sex and could have been arrested.
1. in public (read above)
2. when D rigged the ropes on the ceiling in the hotel...I am not sure we are allowed to damage hotel property

Two things you wish your lover would do more of.
1. I don't have any complaints with what my lovers do just the time we have to do them...
2. maybe kiss...I miss the intimacy, and the connection that comes from having someone in your life you can kiss whenever you want

HNT-31

Cast and fancy free :) But the heels were a mistake my ankle isn't quite ready for that.

Anyway it's late, very late but...

Happy HNT.

1988...

Stolen from Serenity:

1. Go to the Billboard #1 Hits listings (scroll down and you’ll see them separated by decades on the left in the sidebar)
2. Pick the year you turned 18
3. Get yourself nostalgic over the songs of the year
4. Pick 5 songs and write something about how these songs affected you
5. Pass it on to 5 more friends

I happen to love 80s music but I had a hard time finding songs I really liked on Billboard #1 in 1988 go figure...

Faith - George Michael-ok I can't deny I love George Michael I had all of his albums in 1988 even the ones with Wham and I still listen to his greatest hits CD from time to time. My mom had a problem with all my British Pop music between Boy George and George Michael she was beginning to wonder if I only listened to gay men. Of course I assured her that George Michael was not gay...at least he wasn't to me in 1988 lol.

Roll With It - Steve Winwood-I like Steve Winwood and I did own this album.

Sweet Child O' Mine - Guns N' Roses-oh dear lord did I hate this song and I am actually a Guns N' Roses fan...Welcome to the Jungle was our class song after all. But this song? Hated it and I swear it's all I heard the summer of 88.

Don't Worry Be Happy - Bobby McFerrin- ok, ok, I will admit to humming this song. It is just one of those songs that you say you hate and deep down probably do but you still can't help singing it or at least I can't help it. Come on now...don't worry be happy hehehehe...

Love Bites - Def Leppard- another hair band that I love but another song that I hate. I am having a hard time with this list LOL.

Groovy Kind Of Love - Phil Collins-what was Phil thinking? You don't make "I Don't Care Anymore" or "Home by the Sea" with Genesis and then come out with "Groovy Kind of Love" it's just wrong don't you think?

Every Rose Has Its Thorn - Poison-"every rose has it's thorn...just like every night has it's dawn...just like every cowboy sings his sad sad song...every rose has it's thorn" I am guessing here folks but I think my memory is fairly close :) You could not exist in my neck of the woods and not hear and know this song...

If you are reading this and you are bored consider yourself tagged.

Saturday Snapshot

My nephew had his birthday party at Chuckee Cheese today and I was brave (foolish) enough to bring Cam. Corey and I stayed for a bit and then went shoe shopping because he was in desperate need of a new pair.

Corey did very well today...it's Saturdays like these that remind me of the days before puberty. When Corey's autism was just an extra chapter and not the whole book.

HNT-30

It's HNT time again and I am finally out of the boot/cast. But I think I have exhausted the leg series for awhile so I will try something new.

Happy HNT.

Foolish...

I haven't had many opportunities to be foolish. I have always been too broke, or had too many responsibilities, or was too cautious, or most importantly too afraid of failing to be foolish. "What better place for two dorks to indulge but the nation's capital?" my words and after I wrote that post in my journal I realized I was actually going to accept MNG's invitation. He planned the whole trip...a train ride in a sleeper car on our way there the whole nine. And I didn't tell a soul about him or about the trip. Extremely foolish...I can hear my mom right now with all the what ifs...He could be a serial killer, he could hurt you, and the amusing part is he still can. But for some unknown reason I didn't care. I went and had the best time of my life. I never enjoyed a trip more, I never enjoyed my company more, and I can't think of another trip I have taken where every single moment of it was great. It has been a year since I first answered MNG's hi online. Since I met him for coffee and our friendship began. I am still very foolish where he is concerned...A pity I had to be over 35 to take the risk and picked the absolute worst person to take the risk with. But you know foolish or not I don't regret it, not one single moment of it...